The Curse of Writing
Poetry
A. J. Levin
Sane
people don’t choose to write: especially poems.
Think
about it. Why would well-adjusted people write
about something when they could be doing
it?
And
why, of anything, poetry, with its total lack of commercial appeal?
Sure,
it’s popular to want to be a writer. People are seduced perhaps by romantic images
of authors as wealthy flâneurs, or freewheeling
unconventional partiers à la Hunter S. Thompson in Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. But then, Mr. Thompson blew his own
head off.
The
Muse is not a friend who comes over for coffee and leaves once you start dropping
hints.
The
Muse is a poltergeist who appears unbidden, and who stays for unpredictable lengths
of time, lumbering you with conditions. And then, after the inspiration, the
work: editing, pruning, shaping, massaging.
Yes,
the impulse to write is an unwanted guest, very much like prophecy was to Jonah.
To
extend the “unwanted guest” metaphor, you could say the urge to write is a mental
disease akin to depression (or obsessive-compulsive disorder, or schizophrenia,
or ADHD, or all those).
You
heard me right. This isn’t news—it’s something you can find in scientific
journals,* as well as in the Elizabethan English poet Michael Drayton’s description
of Christopher Marlowe:
…that fine madness still he did
retain
Which rightly should possess a poet’s brain.
Which rightly should possess a poet’s brain.
Given
the difficulty of harnessing a Muse who is, after all, a sort of psychiatric disorder,
it’s a wonder writers actually make money. It was hard enough for a poet to
make money in the time of William Blake, who claimed to have seen God peeking
into his window.
*See for example S. Kiyaga et al., “Mental Illness, Suicide, and Creativity: Forty-Year Prospective Total Population Study,” Journal of Psychiatric Research online (Nov. 2012), Elsevier; and A.M. Ludwig, “Mental Illness and Creative Activity in Female Writers,”.American Journal of Psychiatry 151.11 (Nov. 1994), 1650-56.
It’s
even harder now, in an age where no two children have the same cultural
references, even Shakespeare and the Bible cannot be referenced without fears
of a blank stare, and the average person is more likely than not to think Yeats
is a brand of handbag.
So
why write?
There’s
just one good answer—because you have no choice
A.J. Levin is the author of Monks' Fruit (Nightwood, 2004) and a freelance writer in Winnipeg. He is currently working on a non-fiction book about his family tree.
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